Diary of an Overweight Sistah

Join me on my journey of weight loss. It will be a long hard road. When I started out as an adult I was a size 0. I am a size 16/18 depending who the outfit is made for. With hypertension and diabetes in my family...something has to give and it won't be my heart nor my health so the race is on! I will log into my blog daily to keep you posted. HOld me accountable. Laugh with me, cry with me, lecture me. If I could figure out how to post periodic pictures I would, but I don't so sorry.

Wednesday, June 08, 2005

The Hour Glass Figure

http://www.thirdage.com/news/articles/ALT02/05/06/08/ALT02050608-01.html

An Hourglass Figure Is Good for You

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It will come as welcome news to thousands of women that fat stored around the hips and posterior can actually be good for you, scientists say.
The traditional hourglass figure made famous by Marilyn Monroe and recently revived by the pop star Jennifer Lopez can also prevent heart disease, diabetes and high blood pressure.
But doctors warned women not to scrap the bikini diet just yet -- as excess fat around the stomach is still seen as a warning sign of health problems.
The study from the Institute of Preventative Medicine in Copenhagen is a classic case of apples-versus-pears.
According to the report, an "apple-shaped" woman with excess fat around the waist is likely to be less healthy than a curvaceous, "pear-shaped" woman.

This is because fat cells around the stomach pump out fatty acids to the blood much more readily than fat cells elsewhere, damaging the insulin system and raising the risk of diabetes and heart disease.
But a pear-shaped woman has fat stored around the hips, where it is more likely to produce adiponectin, a hormone which has anti-inflammatory effects and is associated with a reduced risk of heart disease.
The study looked at more than 50,000 men and women of different shapes over a period of time to observe individual health responses.
The Danish researchers concluded that the ideal measurement for a woman is at least a size 14 with hips measuring 40 inches or more.
Berit Heitmann, a professor of nutritional epidemiology who led the study, said too little muscle tissue or too little fat tissue, or both, around the hips can greatly increase risk of heart disease.
She said, "Fat on the hips is different from fat on the abdomen. If you do not have enough of this fat, you may risk heart attacks."
And Dr Heitmann said the study applied to both men and women. She added, "It is not a question of having wide hips, it is a question of having hips that are not too narrow.
"If there is too little fat or muscle around the hips, there is a correlating risk of heart attack and dying prematurely."
Dr Heitmann said women in particular appear to be protected from heart problems through having tissue around the hips.
Dr David Haslam, the chairman of the British National Obesity Forum, said that while pear-shaped people were at a greater risk of arthritis due to carrying greater weight, they were healthier overall thanks to the anti-inflammatory substance being produced.
He added, "For apple-shaped people, their fat is buried deep inside. It releases damaging chemicals that take the place of anti-inflammatory substances."
Dr Christine Edwards, a senior lecturer in human nutrition at Glasgow University, said weight was not the important factor in judging good health.
She said, "It is not just standing on the scales. You can have people of the same weight but because one person stores that weight around their hips and another around the stomach, it may mean one is healthier. Men tend to store weight on their stomachs. That is the worst you can be. You really want excess weight distributed evenly around the body."
Dr Edwards recommended measuring the waist or Body Mass Index (BMI), to gauge a healthy weight.
Men should have waists measuring less than 37 inches and for women, 32 inches, while both sexes should have a BMI of under 25.
Dr Edwards said women were designed to have some fat stored for childbirth and lactating, so a curvy figure was nothing to worry about. But she urged people to keep a check on excess weight around the midsection or a BMI of more than 30, which is classified as obese.
Susie Whalley, the deputy editor of Zest magazine, said the study reflected a more healthy attitude towards women's curves, highlighting recent soap advertisements using full-figured models.
She said, "Women are constantly comparing themselves to celebrities and get so much telling them to be wafer-thin, [that] it is really good to see a study saying there are health benefits to being curvy." Source: The Scotsman. Powered by Yellowbrix. Want more women's health news? Subscribe to the ThirdAge Women's Health Insider.

Friday, June 03, 2005

Water

So what is up with this water thing? I have already drunk 3 liters of water today and I am starving. I ate breakfast of Lucky Charms, 2 bananas, and 1 No Fat Strawberry Yogurt and I am starving. Why is the water not helping?

This is a great article. Thanks to myfooddiary.com

Drinking Water and Weight Loss
Article by Maia Appleby
MyFoodDiary.com ContributorDon’t roll your eyes! The potion for losing that excess body fat is all around you. It covers two thirds of the planet. If you eat right and exercise at the intensity, frequency and duration proper for you, but still can’t get rid of a little paunch here and there, you’re probably just not drinking enough water.No need to get defensive. You’re actually quite normal. Most people don’t drink enough water. Most people are also carrying around a few more pounds than they would be if they did drink enough water. If you can’t seem to get that weight off, try drowning your sorrows in nature’s magical weight-loss mineral. It works, and here’s why:"What on Earth is 'metabolism', anyway?" People use the term all the time, but ask them what it means and you’ll get all kinds of answers. Merriam Webster defines it as, "The process by which a substance is handled in the body." A little vague, but that’s really all it means.There are many forms of metabolism going on in your body right now, but the one everyone is talking about is the metabolism of fat. This is actually something that the liver does when it converts stored fat to energy. The liver has other functions, but this is one of its main jobs.Unfortunately, another of the liver’s duties is to pick up the slack for the kidneys, which need plenty of water to work properly. If the kidneys are water-deprived, the liver has to do their work along with its own, lowering its total productivity. It then can’t metabolize fat as quickly or efficiently as it could when the kidneys were pulling their own weight. If you allow this to happen, not only are you being unfair to your liver, but you’re also setting yourself up to store fat."I’ve tried it and I couldn’t stand it!" The problem is that, though many decide to increase their water intake, very few stick with it. It’s understandable. During the first few days of drinking more water than your body is accustomed to, you’re running to the bathroom constantly. This can be very discouraging, and it can certainly interfere with an otherwise normal day at work. It seems that the water is coming out just as fast as it’s going in, and many people decide that their new hydration habit is fruitless.Do take heed, though. What is really happening is that your body is flushing itself of the water it has been storing throughout all those years of "survival mode." It takes a while, but this is a beautiful thing happening to you. As you continue to give your body all the water it could ask for, it gets rid of what it doesn’t need. It gets rid of the water it was holding onto in your ankles and your hips and thighs, maybe even around your belly. You are excreting much more than you realize. Your body figures it doesn’t need to save these stores anymore; it’s trusting that the water will keep coming, and if it does, eventually, the flushing (of both the body and the potty) will cease, allowing the human to return to a normal life. It’s true. This is called the "breakthrough point."One recent finding, as irresponsible as it may be, that caffeine increases the body’s fat-burning potential has many people loading up on coffee before going to the gym. This finding may hold some degree of truth in it, but caffeine is, in essence, a diuretic, and diuretics dehydrate. Caffeine may increase the heart rate, causing a few more calories to be burned, but this is at the expense of the muscles, which need water to function properly. This isn’t doing your heart any favors, either. It’s already working hard enough during your workout. Never mix caffeine and exercise. In fact, your best bet is to stay away from caffeine altogether. It’s a big bully that pushes your friend water out of your system.Water is the best beauty treatment. You’ve heard this since high school, and it’s true. Water will do wonders for your looks! It flushes out impurities in your skin, leaving you with a clear, glowing complexion. It also makes your skin look younger. Skin that is becoming saggy, either due to aging or weight loss, plumps up very nicely when the skin cells are hydrated.In addition, it improves muscle tone. You can lift weights until you’re blue in the face, but if your muscles are suffering from a drought, you won’t notice a pleasant difference in your appearance. Muscles that have all the water they need contract more easily, making your workout more effective, and you’ll look much nicer than if you had flabby muscles under sagging skin."Eight glasses a day? Are you kidding?!" It’s really not that much. Eight 8-ounce glasses amount to about two quarts of water. This is okay for the average person, but if you’re overweight, you should drink another eight ounces for every 25 pounds of excess weight you carry. You should also up this if you live in a hot climate or exercise very intensely.This water consumption should be spread out throughout the day. It’s not healthy at all to drink too much water at one time. Try to pick three or four times a day when you can have a big glass of water, and then sip in between. Don’t let yourself get thirsty. If you feel thirsty, you’re already becoming dehydrated. Drink when you’re not thirsty yet.Do you think water is yucky? Drinking other fluids will certainly help hydrate your body, but the extra calories, sugar, additives and whatever else aren’t what you need. Try a slice of lemon or lime in the glass, or if you really think you hate water, try flavored water. Just make sure you read the labels. Remember that you’re going to be consuming a lot of this fluid.It’s probably a good idea to stop drinking water a good three hours before you go to bed. You know why."How cold should it be?" This is debatable. Most experts lean toward cold water, because the stomach absorbs it more quickly. There is also some evidence that cold water might enhance fat burning. On the other hand, warmer water is easier to drink in large quantities, and you might drink more of it without even realizing it. Do whatever suits you here. Just drink it!When you drink all the water you need, you will very quickly notice a decrease in your appetite, possibly even on the first day! If you're serious about becoming leaner and healthier, drinking water is an absolute must. If you're doing everything else right and still not seeing results, this might just be what's missing.

Thursday, June 02, 2005

Introducing the two Angelas

So I should make this easier. I am going to start signing my posts with my two famous aliases.

  • Workout Angela
  • Lazy Angela

Alias really isn't a good word as they are both me. Lazy Angela is the one I have been and is most natural for me to be. Workout Angela is who I am trying to become. I have been lazy all my life so it is a daunting task.

Lazy Angela...............The one who knows she has gotten fat and needs to do better. She loves to read, isn't a fan of the outdoors, and would rather have gastric bypass, but doesn't weigh enough to have it.

Workout Angela is the one who is taking control of her health and working out in some capacity 6 days a week. Half of her knows she is fat and that is her motivation and the other half still hates to workout, but is making the best of it.

Sometimes you surprise yourself

I mentioned this is a bad week. So today I woke up late AGAIN! I knew I wasn't coming to the gym this morning when I got home at 10:30 from a public meeting. So I realize I am late and go to the closer bus stop. The #4 suddenly appears and I start to run. As I get there he is pulling off. So I start to hussle down the street three blocks to get the #27. I don't have it in me to run as I am still waking up LOL I see it go by. Suddenly I am walking up the street with a dilema? Should I walk (1.84 miles) or should I wait?

Well workout Angela won over lazy Angela and I decided to walk. I called my younger cousin who has no job therefore nothing better to do to talk to me as I walk. Do you know I got here in 22 minutes. I was proud of myself. Plus the next #27 never caught up to me so if I had waited I would have been EVEN later and as I walked across the street the next #4 was coming down the hill so I did well.

Let's just hope I pick up energy before my weight lifting class.

Wednesday, June 01, 2005

Article - Diet Myths

I am putting this here so I can refer back to it.

http://win.niddk.nih.gov/publications/myths.htm


"Lose 30 pounds in 30 days!"
"Eat as much as you want and still lose weight!"
"Try the thigh buster and lose inches fast!"
And so on, and so on, and so on. With so many products and weight-loss theories out there, it's easy to get confused.
The information in this fact sheet will help clear up confusion about weight loss, nutrition, and physical activity. It may also help you make healthy changes in your eating and physical activity habits. If you have questions not answered here, or if you want to lose weight, talk to your health care provider. A registered dietitian, or other qualified health professional can give you advice on how to follow a healthy eating plan, lose weight safely, and keep it off.
Diet Myths
Myth: Fad diets work for permanent weight loss.
Fact: Fad diets are not the best way to lose weight and keep it off. Fad diets often promise quick weight loss or tell you to cut certain foods out of your diet. You may lose weight at first on one of these diets. But diets that strictly limit calories or food choices are hard to follow. Most people quickly get tired of them and regain any lost weight.
Fad diets may be unhealthy because they may not provide all of the nutrients your body needs. Also, losing weight at a very rapid rate (more than 3 pounds a week after the first couple weeks) may increase your risk for developing gallstones (clusters of solid material in the gallbladder that can be painful). Diets that provide less than 800 calories per day also could result in heart rhythm abnormalities, which can be fatal.
Tip: Research suggests that losing ½ to 2 pounds a week by making healthy food choices, eating moderate portions, and building physical activity into your daily life is the best way to lose weight and keep it off. By adopting healthy eating and physical activity habits, you may also lower your risk for developing type 2 diabetes, heart disease, and high blood pressure.
Myth: High-protein/low-carbohydrate diets are a healthy way to lose weight.
Fact: The long-term health effects of a high-protein/low-carbohydrate diet are unknown. But getting most of your daily calories from high-protein foods like meat, eggs, and cheese is not a balanced eating plan. You may be eating too much fat and cholesterol, which may raise heart disease risk. You may be eating too few fruits, vegetables, and whole grains, which may lead to constipation due to lack of dietary fiber. Following a high-protein/low-carbohydrate diet may also make you feel nauseous, tired, and weak.
Eating fewer than 130 grams of carbohydrate a day can lead to the buildup of ketones (partially broken-down fats) in your blood. A buildup of ketones in your blood (called ketosis) can cause your body to produce high levels of uric acid, which is a risk factor for gout (a painful swelling of the joints) and kidney stones. Ketosis may be especially risky for pregnant women and people with diabetes or kidney disease.
Tip: High-protein/low-carbohydrate diets are often low in calories because food choices are strictly limited, so they may cause short-term weight loss. But a reduced-calorie eating plan that includes recommended amounts of carbohydrate, protein, and fat will also allow you to lose weight. By following a balanced eating plan, you will not have to stop eating whole classes of foods, such as whole grains, fruits, and vegetables—and miss the key nutrients they contain. You may also find it easier to stick with a diet or eating plan that includes a greater variety of foods.
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Myth: Starches are fattening and should be limited when trying to lose weight.
Fact: Many foods high in starch, like bread, rice, pasta, cereals, beans, fruits, and some vegetables (like potatoes and yams) are low in fat and calories. They become high in fat and calories when eaten in large portion sizes or when covered with high-fat toppings like butter, sour cream, or mayonnaise. Foods high in starch (also called complex carbohydrates) are an important source of energy for your body.
Tip: The Dietary Guidelines for Americans recommends eating 6 to 11 servings a day, depending on your calorie needs, from the bread, cereal, rice, and pasta group—even when trying to lose weight. Pay attention to your serving sizes—one serving is equal to 1 slice of bread, 1 ounce of ready-to-eat cereal, or ½ cup of pasta, rice, or cooked cereal. Try to avoid high-fat toppings and choose whole grains, like whole wheat bread, brown rice, oatmeal, and bran cereal. Choose other starchy foods that are high in dietary fiber too, like beans, peas, and vegetables.
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Myth: Certain foods, like grapefruit, celery, or cabbage soup, can burn fat and make you lose weight.
Fact: No foods can burn fat. Some foods with caffeine may speed up your metabolism (the way your body uses energy, or calories) for a short time, but they do not cause weight loss.
Tip: The best way to lose weight is to cut back on the number of calories you eat and be more physically active.
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Myth: Natural or herbal weight-loss products are safe and effective.
Fact: A weight-loss product that claims to be "natural" or "herbal" is not necessarily safe. These products are not usually scientifically tested to prove that they are safe or that they work. For example, herbal products containing ephedra (now banned by the U.S. Government) have caused serious health problems and even death. Newer products that claim to be ephedra-free are not necessarily danger-free, because they may contain ingredients similar to ephedra.
Tip: Talk with your health care provider before using any weight-loss product. Some natural or herbal weight-loss products can be harmful.
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Meal Myths
Myth: "I can lose weight while eating whatever I want."
Fact: To lose weight, you need to use more calories than you eat. It is possible to eat any kind of food you want and lose weight. You need to limit the number of calories you eat every day and/or increase your daily physical activity. Portion control is the key. Try eating smaller amounts of food and choosing foods that are low in calories.
Tip: When trying to lose weight, you can still eat your favorite foods—as long as you pay attention to the total number of calories that you eat.
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Myth: Low-fat or nonfat means no calories.
Fact: A low-fat or nonfat food is often lower in calories than the same size portion of the full-fat product. But many processed low-fat or nonfat foods have just as many calories as the full-fat version of the same food or even more calories. They may contain added sugar, flour, or starch thickeners to improve flavor and texture after fat is removed. These ingredients add calories.
Tip: Read the Nutrition Facts Label on a food package to find out how many calories are in a serving. Check the serving size too it may be less than you are used to eating. For more information about reading food labels, read the brochure Energize Yourself and Your Family, from the Weight-control Information Network (WIN) or visit the U.S. Food and Drug Administration (FDA) online at www.cfsan.fda.gov/~dms/foodlab.html.
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Myth: Fast foods are always an unhealthy choice and you should not eat them when dieting.
Fact: Fast foods can be part of a healthy weight-loss program with a little bit of know-how.
Tip: Avoid supersize combo meals, or split one with a friend. Sip on water or nonfat milk instead of soda. Choose salads and grilled foods, like a grilled chicken breast sandwich or small hamburger. Try a "fresco" taco (with salsa instead of cheese or sauce) at taco stands. Fried foods, like French fries and fried chicken, are high in fat and calories, so order them only once in a while, order a small portion, or split an order with a friend. Also, use only small amounts of high-fat, high-calorie toppings, like regular mayonnaise, salad dressings, bacon, and cheese.
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Myth: Skipping meals is a good way to lose weight.
Fact: Studies show that people who skip breakfast and eat fewer times during the day tend to be heavier than people who eat a healthy breakfast and eat four or five times a day. This may be because people who skip meals tend to feel hungrier later on, and eat more than they normally would. It may also be that eating many small meals throughout the day helps people control their appetites.
Tip: Eat small meals throughout the day that include a variety of healthy, low-fat, low-calorie foods. For more information about healthy eating, read the WIN brochure Healthy Eating and Physical Activity Across Your Lifespan: Tips for Adults.
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Myth: Eating after 8 p.m. causes weight gain.
Fact: It does not matter what time of day you eat. It is what and how much you eat and how much physical activity you do during the whole day that determines whether you gain, lose, or maintain your weight. No matter when you eat, your body will store extra calories as fat.
Tip: If you want to have a snack before bedtime, think first about how many calories you have eaten that day. And try to avoid snacking in front of the TV at night it may be easier to overeat when you are distracted by the television.
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Physical Activity Myth
Myth: Lifting weights is not good to do if you want to lose weight, because it will make you "bulk up."
Fact: Lifting weights or doing strengthening activities like push-ups and crunches on a regular basis can actually help you maintain or lose weight. These activities can help you build muscle, and muscle burns more calories than body fat. So if you have more muscle, you burn more calories—even sitting still. Doing strengthening activities 2 or 3 days a week will not "bulk you up." Only intense strength training, combined with a certain genetic background, can build very large muscles.
Tip: In addition to doing at least 30 minutes of moderate-intensity physical activity (like walking 2 miles in 30 minutes) on most days of the week, try to do strengthening activities 2 to 3 days a week. You can lift weights, use large rubber bands (resistance bands), do push-ups or sit-ups, or do household or garden tasks that make you lift or dig.
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Food Myths
Myth: Nuts are fattening and you should not eat them if you want to lose weight.
Fact: In small amounts, nuts can be part of a healthy weight-loss program. Nuts are high in calories and fat. However, most nuts contain healthy fats that do not clog arteries. Nuts are also good sources of protein, dietary fiber, and minerals including magnesium and copper.
Tip: Enjoy small portions of nuts. One-third cup of mixed nuts has about 270 calories.
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Myth: Eating red meat is bad for your health and makes it harder to lose weight.
Fact: Eating lean meat in small amounts can be part of a healthy weight-loss plan. Red meat, pork, chicken, and fish contain some cholesterol and saturated fat (the least healthy kind of fat). They also contain healthy nutrients like protein, iron, and zinc.
Tip: Choose cuts of meat that are lower in fat and trim all visible fat. Lower fat meats include pork tenderloin and beef round steak, tenderloin, sirloin tip, flank steak, and extra lean ground beef. Also, pay attention to portion size. One serving is 2 to 3 ounces of cooked meat—about the size of a deck of cards.
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Myth: Dairy products are fattening and unhealthy.
Fact: Low-fat and nonfat milk, yogurt, and cheese are just as nutritious as whole milk dairy products, but they are lower in fat and calories. Dairy products have many nutrients your body needs. They offer protein to build muscles and help organs work properly, and calcium to strengthen bones. Most milks and some yogurts are fortified with vitamin D to help your body use calcium.
Tip: The Dietary Guidelines for Americans recommend that people aged 9 to 18 and over age 50 have three servings of milk, yogurt, and cheese a day. Adults aged 19 to 49 need two servings a day, even when trying to lose weight. A serving is equal to 1 cup of milk or yogurt, 1½ ounces of natural cheese such as cheddar, or 2 ounces of processed cheese such as American. Choose low-fat or nonfat dairy products including milk, yogurt, cheese, and ice cream.
If you cannot digest lactose (the sugar found in dairy products), choose low-lactose or lactose-free dairy products, or other foods and beverages that offer calcium and vitamin D (listed below).
Calcium: fortified fruit juice, soy-based beverage, or tofu made with calcium sulfate; canned salmon; dark leafy greens like collards or kale
Vitamin D: fortified fruit juice, soy-based beverage, or cereal (getting some sunlight on your skin also gives you a small amount of vitamin D
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Myth: "Going vegetarian" means you are sure to lose weight and be healthier.
Fact: Research shows that people who follow a vegetarian eating plan, on average, eat fewer calories and less fat than non-vegetarians. They also tend to have lower body weights relative to their heights than non-vegetarians. Choosing a vegetarian eating plan with a low fat content may be helpful for weight loss. But vegetarians—like non-vegetarians—can make food choices that contribute to weight gain, like eating large amounts of high-fat, high-calorie foods or foods with little or no nutritional value.
Vegetarian diets should be as carefully planned as non-vegetarian diets to make sure they are balanced. Nutrients that non-vegetarians normally get from animal products, but that are not always found in a vegetarian eating plan, are iron, calcium, vitamin D, vitamin B12, zinc, and protein.
Tip: Choose a vegetarian eating plan that is low in fat and that provides all of the nutrients your body needs. Food and beverage sources of nutrients that may be lacking in a vegetarian diet are listed below.
Iron: cashews, spinach, lentils, garbanzo beans, fortified bread or cereal
Calcium: dairy products, fortified soy-based beverages or fruit juices, tofu made with calcium sulfate, collard greens, kale, broccoli
Vitamin D: fortified foods and beverages including milk, soy-based beverages, fruit juices, or cereal
Vitamin B12: eggs, dairy products, fortified cereal or soy-based beverages, tempeh, miso (tempeh and miso are foods made from soybeans)
Zinc: whole grains (especially the germ and bran of the grain), nuts, tofu, leafy vegetables (spinach, cabbage, lettuce)
Protein: eggs, dairy products, beans, peas, nuts, seeds, tofu, tempeh, soy-based burgers.
If you don't know whether or not to believe a weight-loss or nutrition claim, check it out! The Federal Trade Commission (www.ftc.gov/bcp/conline/features/wgtloss.htm) has information on deceptive weight-loss advertising claims. You can also find out more about nutrition and weight loss by talking with a registered dietitian. To find a registered dietitian in your area, visit the American Dietetic Association (www.eatright.org/Public/PublicDietitianDisclaimerAdvanced.htm) online or call 1-800-877-1600.
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This Week

Yo I now relate to my friends who have hard days. I had another one today. The difference between me and most is I still went to the gym, but I didn't want to LOL I doubt I gave it my all. Today was kick boxing. You can tell when I am tired and my instuctor stood next to me a good portion of class and since if nothing else I am consistently competitive I kicked higher and punched better when he was standing there.

I really have to say I am glad I went, but still not feeling it LOL However I think I mentioned her the woman who lost 100 pounds who is now a size 2 is at the gym every day I am. We go to the same classes. Everytime I see her I smile at her and know this isn't about being happy about doing something, but doing something I need to do. I hate flossing my teeth, but do it daily because the 5 calories I have had in the last 2 years came from not doing it consistently.

Eating.... I continue to get all smiley faces on myfooddiary.com. This has been the best support I have had. I get it now. I now eat three green veggies for dinner every day. I now have my Nabisco 100 calorie snacks to give me a treat days like today I don't wanna be bothered. It really does help to keep in touch with others on the same path. Angie Calvin had been telling me about that website for close to a year I think. Finally I signed up. The best $9 a month I spend let me tell you!

FYI I tried to weigh myself...... The scale wasn't working though so I guess I will have to do it again soon.