April 22, 2005

Man it is so hard to get motivated to blog. I am still basking in my surprise success now I am annoyed cause I can't see it. I feel it. So my triffling butt got my $186 worth of dry cleaning that had been there for 1 year out and put on some clothes I couldn't wear last summer hence why they stayed in the cleaners so long and there is room in the waist. NOw my hips, thighs, and azz have gone no where so I can't go down a size, but I have plummer's butt with the best of them! Watch out now!

You know my co-worker asked me what motivated me and I could say alot of things that really are a more logical like everyone in the family is diabetic, I already have heart problems, etc. But I would be lying. One day I looked at a picture (I love being in pictures) and realized my face was fat. There is nothing attractive to me about an adult with a fat face. I then remembered the last outfit I had to buy for a wedding was a size 20 bottom. You have to kidding me. So that then got me started then the face thing.

This week has been a good week. I have made it to the gym for the most part every day. I missed Weds as I was sick and didn't go today. So I did walk to and from work today. So I will be at the cross training class in the morning and weight lifting on Sunday. Ugh I hate not having a weekend day off. But such is the life of the fat and motivated!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Me 30 pounds down with 40 to go 

Tuesday, April 19, 2005

You know I love when I go to the gym in the morning. I am so energized right now at 8:30. By the time I am dying again and need energy it will be time to go to the gym again. That's right today is my two a day, day.

This morning I got up at 5:15 excited to start my day. I think something is wrong with me. LOL Anywho I got the bus to the gym, went to spinning, grabbed a two egg breakfast and skipped milk and have killed almost a liter of water all by 8:33............

Okay so here is a somewhat recent picture of me. I am posting it seperately....................

Monday, April 18, 2005

Yo I am so not motivated. What is it about a menstral cycle that takes your will to go to the gym? I am really not sure. So I am taking lunch off to do some errands and will head to kick boxing tonight. I don't feel like going.

WHoever said you start to like this lied. I don't like the gym, I don't like exercising. The fact remains I am fat and NEED to exercise so I will grin and bear it and suck it up.

Pray for me.

April 14, 2005

Hello my name is Angela and I am a recovering fat azz. LOL I am serious. I am about to send an email to all my girls asking them why they didn't tell me I was fat.

Where is this coming from? I just came from my annual doctor's visit. My doctor came in like ooh my goodness congrats! I was like yo you are in the wrong room (if you aren't married do you ever want to hear congrats from your OB/GYN, well this is 2005 so maybe). So when she realized why I said that she started laughing and said on your weight loss. Apparently this time last year I hailed 221 pounds. WTF Thank God I am 5'7 and played it off a little. I am now 186. 40 more to go baby!

I don't obsess with weighing myself. I am under the thought process of I don't need to know my weight fluctuations. While I need to lose weight I am changing my lifestyle so weight loss isn't really the most important, living healthy is so if you do the former the latter naturally occurs.

So today feels good. What am I doing? I go to the gym every day at lunch. I mostly do classes. When I get closer to my smaller self and start getting an ego on specific areas I will pay for a trainer, but not a day before. My doctor evaluated my knees and told me I need not do any running or high impact stuff that impacts my knees, but left biking on my list so I guess I won't be doing my marathon training starting next month and now have to wear a knee brace during my weight class UGH I wasn't good enough at track in high school to be having issues in adult life.

I am now up to 3 liters of water consistently and pretty much sugar free when I get home. Thank God for Cristal Light and Sugar Free Kool Aid. I am somewhat following Oprah's Boot Camp principles, but I am mostly just eating like I am in Europe. Less meat, more fruits and veggies. Damn what South Beach says I can't give up my fruit sugars LOL

Since it is Thursday I can say what I did this week. Saturday I worked out on my own since I missed my Cross Training Class. Eliptical, Stair Climber (doctor said that is a no go), lazy bike (the one where you are sitting pretty comfortably and can rest your back).
Sunday I was going to go to class and got tired. Walked 3/4 mile and slept all day. I am getting old.
Monday: Abs & Kick Boxing
Tuesday: Weight Training Class
Wednesday: Lower Back & Glutes and Cycling Class (Spinning)
Thursday: Spinning at 6 AM and will be going to my weight training class if my lunch meeting is cancelled.

I need to work out twice today and tomorrow so I can be up to my eight workouts in a week. I may not be doing 100% on the Boot Camp diet, but the Boot Camp workout I am there.

FYI I don't care what people say THE GYM IS STILL NOT FUN, but a necessary evil.

Also you ever notice when you are shopping and you are fat you look at skinny girls like biatches. Well I have a new appreciation for skinny women. They are at the gym with my fat azz 5 days a week thus they get to be skinny and in shape with muscle tone. When I was skinny I wasn't in shape, had no muscles, and didn't watch what I eat. So next time I see a skinny woman particularly one like my director who runs 5 miles a day Imma be like you the woman!

April 7, 2005

I up to 6 days a week at the gym and still I can't blog. Go figure.

Anyway I am starting Oprah's Boot Camp. I figure if she can do it at 50 I can do it at 30. I have been watching what I eat for a few weeks, but hesitant to start Boot Camp. I don't know why. I mean hell eating has never been my issue. The stuff she has you eat is pretty much my normal MO anyway.

It is the working out portion that is killing me. So I am up to 6 days a week, but next week I have to add in 2 more work outs. I think Tuesday and Thursday since they are my weight lifting class.

So the funny thing is I now have plenty of muscle. I just have to lose the fat so you can see them!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Funny experience:
Why do majority people have no shame with their hygiene? So I am at the gym and just done showering and getting dressed. Why did this woman put a pad on her underwear and remove a dirty one in public view? Can you see go into a stall please!!!!!!WTF